In his book The Jesus Creed, Scot McKnight shares the moving story of Margaret Ault. When Margaret was just about to complete her Ph.D. at Duke, something unexpected—but quite welcomed—happened: she fell in love. She went on a date with a man named Hyung Goo Kim, and the proverbial sparks flew. But almost as quickly as the sparks became a fire, they were doused with water. Hyung Goo informed Margaret that he was HIV positive. Needless to say, Margaret was devastated. In her own words, "I'd just met someone I liked, and we were definitely not going to live happily ever after. I felt like I had been kicked in the gut by the biggest boot in the world."
Still, she and Hyung Goo were married. In his book McKnight asks the question many of us would ask: "Why would anyone invite into the core of their being so much pain?" He then goes on to share that the answer unfolds in the rest of Margaret and Hyung Goo's story. He writes:
When Margaret was in graduate school at Duke, she and Hyung Goo loved
to walk in the Duke gardens, and so knowledgeable did they become of its plants
that they "supervised construction" of a new project. They walked
through each part of the garden routinely and had names for some of the ducks.
In their last spring together, the garden seemed especially beautiful [to
them].
Hyung Goo died in the fall and Margaret returned to the gardens in the
spring where a memorial garden of roses was being constructed in his honour.
McKnight then points the reader to a series of quotations from Margaret's book Sing Me to Heaven, where she reflects on the days she returned to the gardens. She writes:
Where peonies were promised, there were only the dead stumps of last
year's stalks; where day lilies were promised, there were unprepossessing tufts
of foliage; where hostas were promised, there was nothing at all. And yet I
know what lushness lay below the surface; those beds that were so brown and
empty and, to the unknowing eye, so umpromising, would be full to bursting in a
matter of months.
Is the whole world like this? Is this what it might be like to live in
expectation, real expectation, of the resurrection?
Was not Hyung Goo's and my life together like this? Empty and sere,
and yet a seedbed of fullness and life for both of us. He died, and I was
widowed; yet in his dying, we both were made alive.
After
quoting Margaret's words, McKnight concludes:
Where does she find strength to grip such faith and such hope? It is
found in [her question]: Is the whole world like this?
The answer, "Yes, the whole world is like this: the whole world
offers us tokens of new life beyond death and disasters." It offers the
promise of new life beyond the grave, a life of renewed love in the presence of
God. Why? Because Jesus was raised from the dead.
Scot McKnight, The Jesus Creed (Paraclete Press, 2005), pp. 286-288
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